I’m new to Depression.
I was a happy kid and was blessed with a great childhood.
Up until about 2014, I was content with my life and a happy go lucky kind of guy but then suffered depression following the loss of 3 loved ones in a relatively short time period and never quite got over it.
In 2015, I was institutionalised three times and am now on happy pills.
Much to my disappointment that I need chemicals to get through each and every day.
The hard part though is that I do need to talk to someone but I just don’t know who or how.
The Doctor I see is useless and just loves the sound of his own voice and just makes digs at my psychotic delusions of the past.
I want to talk to my family but my Dad has Alzheimers and my Mum works hard and to be honest even talking to my brother I just don’t want to put people down with my negative thinking.
I don’t want to be this sad sap and I don’t know how to explain that I’m frightened to meet with people socially.
How do you tell people that for the first time in 30 years, I feel like a loser.
I feel unworthy and possess a deep feeling of sadness in the pit of my stomach.